Thursday, September 10, 2009
蔡健雅-越来越不懂
在我22岁时回想起当时多么想谈爱
妈妈说就让它来
然而在我32岁时
发现我没太多的心去等待
它失去某种色彩
得不到的就更加爱
太容易来的就不理睬
其实谁不想遇见真爱
爱得绝对爱得坦白
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 yo
我越来越不懂爱
才32岁的我虽然一个人过也过得够精彩
偶尔再想谈恋爱
然而爱总是乱了节拍
我只能够瞎猜也许能中了头彩
中了又觉得奇怪
得不到的就更加爱
太容易来的就不理睬
其实谁不想遇见真爱
爱得绝对爱得坦白
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 oh...
越来越不懂爱
得不到的无所谓
就算是自我安慰没必要伤悲
得不到的就更加爱
太容易来的就不理睬
其实谁不想遇见真爱
爱得绝对爱得坦白
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 oh..
越来越不懂爱
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 oh...
越来越不懂爱
什么都不懂
后记：
实在太深奥了。。。虽然我并不认为这首歌曲好听，但它的歌词别具意义。简白却真实。尤其我最喜欢这段歌词 --- “得不到的就更加爱，太容易来的就不理睬，其实谁不想遇见真爱，爱得绝对爱得坦白。。。”
唉，连我自己也觉得有一点闷，怎么我的部落格老是绕着小爱来兜圈圈呢。好吧，下次再找一些新鲜的话题来谈好了。可是，这是我的心底话啊。。。只不过我并没有像歌词里说的那么老呀。。哈哈
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
The SADdest Face -- My very own masterpiece
The SADdest Face.... My very own masterpiece...
时常上网的人其实内心很空虚寂寞，生活并无多姿多彩，有时超无聊！可是我们不知不觉中上瘾了，而成为了一份子。。。或许是逃避的籍口吧！
没有网络的日子，该如何填补生活上的空虚呢？？？
Sunsun_Chs.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
FRESH NEW LOOK ! Something NICE !
I want something new, something exciting, something tremendous, something enlightening, something revitalizing, something positive, something cherishing, something fabulous, something good, some nice pushing, some nice advices, some nice supports, some nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice things !
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
DEADly SICK DAYS ...Dead fish
It started on last Saturday (Aug 29) After I caught myself in a rainy morning.... Well, It was just a normal rainny day, as usual.. Just went to buy breakfast for the family members without an Umbrella.. Hhahah.. Can't figure out how WEAK I AM...
This was the 1st morning where my nephew stayed at my house, after a long tiring rush on Friday. Well, I Skipped my Pre-Saturday tight schedule in this part. After a light breakfast and rushing here and there doing things, helping at home... LUNCH time again... Helping to buy LUCH packs home.. Again, light rainy drops on my head... Phew... NO Problem, Keep going.. Then my niece was so sick till we need to take her to the hospital to see her paediatric doctor at Lam Wah Ee hospital. Waiting and without eating any lunch yet. Sister have to stay at home and take care of BB. I had to go with my briother in law. Waiting and waiting, Till 3:00pm + then only we get to see the doctor. Even the doctor nurse assistance also caught herself in FLU!
Then, You still got a lot of things to do today on Saturday...Yeah.. Your Fun Team Committee Work. Charity Month in October! Your task is to visit and interview an orphanage home and get as many details so that the Fun Team committees can decide on the next week whether to proceed with the plan or not. It was supposed to be a nicely short trip. But what happen was the car air-con fan spoilt. Have to change it.. Well, I had no time to wait for my dad to change it. It needs about 1 hour to fix it, including test drive. So, i say, let me drove there without air-con. If without rain, the air is still fine, but as soon as i drove near the town area, it started to rain and traffic jam.. sucks! have to wind up the window, leaving it with only some small gaps to allow the oxygen and carbon monocide blowing into the car and enjoying breath in all of them, without extra filter... ALL filtered by my lungs! Sweating inside the car. After about half an hour, reach St Joseph Orphanage Home, right beside the Cititel Hotel. Well, the rain had finally stopped. Parked my car at the yard near the church and walked towards the orphanage home. The building is a 2 levels buildings. Nothing special, but you can see kids running around. There are 2 computer rooms, 2 classrooms, 1 play room/ TV Room, 1 library, canteen, and girls and boys hostels. It can be say is quite well established orphanage home. I was introduced to Sister Margaret. She is quite nice but i must emphasized was... She was suffering from heavy flu... sneezing...throughout the whole interview and home visit! Well, i quickly get all the necessary details which I had prepared earlier and "run away"... What hitted me again was it started to rain again.. Tiny drops fell on my head.... and I was again packed myself in an Old Wira with no air-con and jamming back home.
Luckily when i reach home, the rain stop. It was time for my dad to show off while I was preparing myself to go for the 14th Bayan Baru Toastmaster Dinner and Humurous contest at Berjaya Hotel. Of course, I was not the participant, But in fact, I was being invited by the MC as a guest to enjoy their performance, while treating with course dinner and my friend;s Latin Dance Performance on the stage. Meeting those high level people, chattings...Started Feeling Cold even with long sleeves and long pant! Nothing much.. Go back home jam after that with a tiring body... Almost 12 midnight by the time reached home. Wanted to sleep, My Niece still hyperactive... the mom and the rest are busy with their own stuff and baby..Don't care already.. Go to sleep ..
The clock stroke at 1:30am...Time to BED !!! Finally we managed to pad my niece to sleep in my room as she was heavy flu with fever. We didn't want her to sleep in the same room as the baby. As usual, I put my mobile beside of my bed, in the dark, I grabbed something....Yeaks.. Ouuchhhh... What was biting my finger??????? I just had nothing to come out from my mouth but to cry in pain... My brother in law rushed into my room and switched on the light. OMG! A BEE ! I thought it was a beetle, as normally it would be beetle on the floor. I had just grab a BEE using my finger! Immediately i can see Redishness on my 3rd right hand finger. Well, Again.. Don't know how many times I had been going to the hospital this week! and now is going at midnight 1:30am! People are sleeping and visiting sweet dreams while I was visiting a stupid doctor! The temporary doctor once found out i was in flu and i have started light fever, sore throat, He is complaining why i didn't want to come visit the other morning cause they have the AH1N1 test. SUCKS. I came here main purpose was Stung by BEE and need immediate treatment, not FLU! and my finger was swelling, reddish, extremely pain! i complained and of course, get my hand treated but he didn't even look at my finger nor throat!. What a doctor which is in standby by midnight. Those temporary doctor.. I was only given a Clarinase for my FLU, and oil liquid for my finger and Strong Pain KIller - Celebrex 200mg!. Crazy ! Couldn't do much about it, went back home, rain again.. heavy rain.. Sleep in pain and the flu germs happily sleep with me too..
August 30 (Sunday)
In the next morning, fever without realizing.. just felt pain on finger and body aching... COLD... nose block, sorethroat... It was getting severe and severe.. Once got wind blowing or cold, my body pain and I had no energy... Feeling extremely weak & weak & weak.. Was originally plan to do my office reports and decks due to Monday was our National Day (Aug 31), but then I was totally out of control.... I keep feeding myself with panadols, i give to my own.. the doc didn't give me...then Aerius (tablet for sensitve throat/nose problem), Zyrtec, clarinase, vitamin C, Liverin, and all sorts of supplements.. Well, I manage to stand till the late evening. Of course, now i need to wear mask at home...to prevent the rest from being impacted.. Then I couldn't stand it anymore. Collapsed.. I rushed to the hospital again, meeting the other long term doctor for help. Getting weaker.. Laying myself at the waiting chair... Forgotten to mention.. I actually drove myself to see doctor, though i was so sick and feel dizzy... all of the family members were too busy till i had to say i could drive and i drove myself there, with half awake! Finally, this doc gave me a strong imported antibiotic - Zithromax, Diflamm lozenges, panadol, motilium. Spent Rm80+ this time. prescription for 3 days only and with warning if still no improvement, I had to come over and do blood test for further diagnosis!
Drove back and take those pills, feeling more dizzy and body ache and cold. Sleep. This time, no more bees. Turning right and left.. didn't know how many turnings I had that night...Sigh...
Aug 31 (MOnday)
My mom had pre set that today morning we had to pray for our ancestors at home. We chinese hokkien has a culture where in the chinese ghost month of July, we need to invite the passed away relatives/ancestors to come home and have some food, and have them bring back some Gold/money and listen to the prayers. So, again, I had to do my usually assigned tasks. Helping out to set up everything and make sure everything is fine while my mom went to the market and after that cook some dishes. Luckily I still can help out... But actually counting back what accidents I had been making in the morning... They are: I didn;t have energy to take 2 big door locks together and I fell one of them on my dad's fragile floor. Good for me, i didn't break the bricks on the floor. I spilt the soup when walking towards the table. NO energy again. . . I spilt the grapes on the floor as well, I spilt this and that... and I had to clean up quietly before my mom awared of my sickness so badly.. Couldn't let her know as she had been so busy and tiring as well... couldn't let her worried about me... Must be strong... At least, finished all the tasks for the prayings and it will be good rest for me after that!
After lunch...Cannot tahan d... and i didnt know actually my fever is still there. I didnt check.. More pain... but sweating a lot also.. seems like my body is fighting against the germs... the medicine is working their best.. my cells are trying their best.. but my mind is emptied minded.. like people in comma but eyes are wide opened. can't really sleep. just keep awake. decided to go to panel clinic to take MC for Tuesday. My 1st MC for this year.. i guess. Unfortunately, all panel closed due to public holiday. WTF! I can't take MC from hospital without panel clinic referral letter... and those panel clinic medicines are sucks. Couldn't really cure in speedy time. So I become my own doctor again.. keep taking those medicines and supplements. And my office works.. Who cares now.. Don't care already.. haven't started any thing yet.. Tried to online at night to retrieve the raw data file from company shared drive, When done, was already half asleep. Don't care, Couldn't awake.. Take the medicine and Go to Bed & Sleep! Had decided if worst case still come, will emergency admitted to shopital and MC... Another thing forgotten to mention, I suspected there's a bee hive somewhere... another bees was discovered flying and was dead on the floor...
Sept 1 (Tuesday)
I was blessed. Feelign better without fever now. But I could feel the dizziness on my head and hands and legs are still weak.. Even lift up my hand also couldn't longer. Tiring. Today will be my full day to WORK HARD till the THINGS ARE DONE before i collapsed. My boss said.. OMG, tomorrow meeting I might died if no deck to present in the meeting. Well, I was the business analyst for SA region and has no backup. What to do... Dragging Dragging Dragging.. Half emptied minded, half awake, Blank, then rest then work again. wearing the mask in the office for the whole day! All of them dare not talk to me as I told them i had fever, flu, sorethroat, body ache. Hhahah.. at least, no one dare to borther me with things.. hahhah...except those in MSN.. kkakakkakak... BY the time i finished and send everything, it was already office hour 5pm.
Yeah.. it's time to go home and have a good rest to revitalize myself with mom's cooking.. I only had one small piece of swiss roll as my lunch and dinner only have one vege dish with no rice. Breakfast? Milo only. Good for me to keep fit.. Sick is good aslo.. hahha
Sept 2 (Wednesday)
Not so dizzy now. Finished all my antibiotics and medicine. but still has some side effects, still weak, body not recovered yet. but at least can type faster d... mind is more functioning and can even quarell and fights with mouth..and hands.. hahha But in certain time where wind blows, still a bit aching and not comfortable.. Throat is very very very dry. Keeps drinking lots of water to prevent coughing due to dryness. Try not to talk.. and only in low soft voice... Was originally plan to complete my work but have been long time didn't update my blog... so my hand is a bit itchy.. 12:32 midnight now.. MY mom they all laugh at me.. sick people don't want to sleep but sitting there writing silly nonsence diary blog which only those boring people will do! Hhaha.. all I ignore lah.. tomorow only i will start working.
What a long nonsence I have been sneezing.. 废话一箩箩。。。自己看的日记嘛，当然啰说。你要嘛就看，不要嘛就别看好了。。。干别人什么事？ 嘻嘻。
OK. Goodnite! Sweet Dreams and enjoy my long holiday till next monday.. OOpss.. have to complete my work tomorrow night.. no more delay or else what happen again over the weekend... Oh God, Bless me with your love and strength.. Thanks!
Sweet Sneezes from SunSun*
PS: I discovered a lot of wrong grammars and spellings... Arghh.. Lazy to correct... Do you mind?
This was the 1st morning where my nephew stayed at my house, after a long tiring rush on Friday. Well, I Skipped my Pre-Saturday tight schedule in this part. After a light breakfast and rushing here and there doing things, helping at home... LUNCH time again... Helping to buy LUCH packs home.. Again, light rainy drops on my head... Phew... NO Problem, Keep going.. Then my niece was so sick till we need to take her to the hospital to see her paediatric doctor at Lam Wah Ee hospital. Waiting and without eating any lunch yet. Sister have to stay at home and take care of BB. I had to go with my briother in law. Waiting and waiting, Till 3:00pm + then only we get to see the doctor. Even the doctor nurse assistance also caught herself in FLU!
Then, You still got a lot of things to do today on Saturday...Yeah.. Your Fun Team Committee Work. Charity Month in October! Your task is to visit and interview an orphanage home and get as many details so that the Fun Team committees can decide on the next week whether to proceed with the plan or not. It was supposed to be a nicely short trip. But what happen was the car air-con fan spoilt. Have to change it.. Well, I had no time to wait for my dad to change it. It needs about 1 hour to fix it, including test drive. So, i say, let me drove there without air-con. If without rain, the air is still fine, but as soon as i drove near the town area, it started to rain and traffic jam.. sucks! have to wind up the window, leaving it with only some small gaps to allow the oxygen and carbon monocide blowing into the car and enjoying breath in all of them, without extra filter... ALL filtered by my lungs! Sweating inside the car. After about half an hour, reach St Joseph Orphanage Home, right beside the Cititel Hotel. Well, the rain had finally stopped. Parked my car at the yard near the church and walked towards the orphanage home. The building is a 2 levels buildings. Nothing special, but you can see kids running around. There are 2 computer rooms, 2 classrooms, 1 play room/ TV Room, 1 library, canteen, and girls and boys hostels. It can be say is quite well established orphanage home. I was introduced to Sister Margaret. She is quite nice but i must emphasized was... She was suffering from heavy flu... sneezing...throughout the whole interview and home visit! Well, i quickly get all the necessary details which I had prepared earlier and "run away"... What hitted me again was it started to rain again.. Tiny drops fell on my head.... and I was again packed myself in an Old Wira with no air-con and jamming back home.
Luckily when i reach home, the rain stop. It was time for my dad to show off while I was preparing myself to go for the 14th Bayan Baru Toastmaster Dinner and Humurous contest at Berjaya Hotel. Of course, I was not the participant, But in fact, I was being invited by the MC as a guest to enjoy their performance, while treating with course dinner and my friend;s Latin Dance Performance on the stage. Meeting those high level people, chattings...Started Feeling Cold even with long sleeves and long pant! Nothing much.. Go back home jam after that with a tiring body... Almost 12 midnight by the time reached home. Wanted to sleep, My Niece still hyperactive... the mom and the rest are busy with their own stuff and baby..Don't care already.. Go to sleep ..
The clock stroke at 1:30am...Time to BED !!! Finally we managed to pad my niece to sleep in my room as she was heavy flu with fever. We didn't want her to sleep in the same room as the baby. As usual, I put my mobile beside of my bed, in the dark, I grabbed something....Yeaks.. Ouuchhhh... What was biting my finger??????? I just had nothing to come out from my mouth but to cry in pain... My brother in law rushed into my room and switched on the light. OMG! A BEE ! I thought it was a beetle, as normally it would be beetle on the floor. I had just grab a BEE using my finger! Immediately i can see Redishness on my 3rd right hand finger. Well, Again.. Don't know how many times I had been going to the hospital this week! and now is going at midnight 1:30am! People are sleeping and visiting sweet dreams while I was visiting a stupid doctor! The temporary doctor once found out i was in flu and i have started light fever, sore throat, He is complaining why i didn't want to come visit the other morning cause they have the AH1N1 test. SUCKS. I came here main purpose was Stung by BEE and need immediate treatment, not FLU! and my finger was swelling, reddish, extremely pain! i complained and of course, get my hand treated but he didn't even look at my finger nor throat!. What a doctor which is in standby by midnight. Those temporary doctor.. I was only given a Clarinase for my FLU, and oil liquid for my finger and Strong Pain KIller - Celebrex 200mg!. Crazy ! Couldn't do much about it, went back home, rain again.. heavy rain.. Sleep in pain and the flu germs happily sleep with me too..
August 30 (Sunday)
In the next morning, fever without realizing.. just felt pain on finger and body aching... COLD... nose block, sorethroat... It was getting severe and severe.. Once got wind blowing or cold, my body pain and I had no energy... Feeling extremely weak & weak & weak.. Was originally plan to do my office reports and decks due to Monday was our National Day (Aug 31), but then I was totally out of control.... I keep feeding myself with panadols, i give to my own.. the doc didn't give me...then Aerius (tablet for sensitve throat/nose problem), Zyrtec, clarinase, vitamin C, Liverin, and all sorts of supplements.. Well, I manage to stand till the late evening. Of course, now i need to wear mask at home...to prevent the rest from being impacted.. Then I couldn't stand it anymore. Collapsed.. I rushed to the hospital again, meeting the other long term doctor for help. Getting weaker.. Laying myself at the waiting chair... Forgotten to mention.. I actually drove myself to see doctor, though i was so sick and feel dizzy... all of the family members were too busy till i had to say i could drive and i drove myself there, with half awake! Finally, this doc gave me a strong imported antibiotic - Zithromax, Diflamm lozenges, panadol, motilium. Spent Rm80+ this time. prescription for 3 days only and with warning if still no improvement, I had to come over and do blood test for further diagnosis!
Drove back and take those pills, feeling more dizzy and body ache and cold. Sleep. This time, no more bees. Turning right and left.. didn't know how many turnings I had that night...Sigh...
Aug 31 (MOnday)
My mom had pre set that today morning we had to pray for our ancestors at home. We chinese hokkien has a culture where in the chinese ghost month of July, we need to invite the passed away relatives/ancestors to come home and have some food, and have them bring back some Gold/money and listen to the prayers. So, again, I had to do my usually assigned tasks. Helping out to set up everything and make sure everything is fine while my mom went to the market and after that cook some dishes. Luckily I still can help out... But actually counting back what accidents I had been making in the morning... They are: I didn;t have energy to take 2 big door locks together and I fell one of them on my dad's fragile floor. Good for me, i didn't break the bricks on the floor. I spilt the soup when walking towards the table. NO energy again. . . I spilt the grapes on the floor as well, I spilt this and that... and I had to clean up quietly before my mom awared of my sickness so badly.. Couldn't let her know as she had been so busy and tiring as well... couldn't let her worried about me... Must be strong... At least, finished all the tasks for the prayings and it will be good rest for me after that!
After lunch...Cannot tahan d... and i didnt know actually my fever is still there. I didnt check.. More pain... but sweating a lot also.. seems like my body is fighting against the germs... the medicine is working their best.. my cells are trying their best.. but my mind is emptied minded.. like people in comma but eyes are wide opened. can't really sleep. just keep awake. decided to go to panel clinic to take MC for Tuesday. My 1st MC for this year.. i guess. Unfortunately, all panel closed due to public holiday. WTF! I can't take MC from hospital without panel clinic referral letter... and those panel clinic medicines are sucks. Couldn't really cure in speedy time. So I become my own doctor again.. keep taking those medicines and supplements. And my office works.. Who cares now.. Don't care already.. haven't started any thing yet.. Tried to online at night to retrieve the raw data file from company shared drive, When done, was already half asleep. Don't care, Couldn't awake.. Take the medicine and Go to Bed & Sleep! Had decided if worst case still come, will emergency admitted to shopital and MC... Another thing forgotten to mention, I suspected there's a bee hive somewhere... another bees was discovered flying and was dead on the floor...
Sept 1 (Tuesday)
I was blessed. Feelign better without fever now. But I could feel the dizziness on my head and hands and legs are still weak.. Even lift up my hand also couldn't longer. Tiring. Today will be my full day to WORK HARD till the THINGS ARE DONE before i collapsed. My boss said.. OMG, tomorrow meeting I might died if no deck to present in the meeting. Well, I was the business analyst for SA region and has no backup. What to do... Dragging Dragging Dragging.. Half emptied minded, half awake, Blank, then rest then work again. wearing the mask in the office for the whole day! All of them dare not talk to me as I told them i had fever, flu, sorethroat, body ache. Hhahah.. at least, no one dare to borther me with things.. hahhah...except those in MSN.. kkakakkakak... BY the time i finished and send everything, it was already office hour 5pm.
Yeah.. it's time to go home and have a good rest to revitalize myself with mom's cooking.. I only had one small piece of swiss roll as my lunch and dinner only have one vege dish with no rice. Breakfast? Milo only. Good for me to keep fit.. Sick is good aslo.. hahha
Sept 2 (Wednesday)
Not so dizzy now. Finished all my antibiotics and medicine. but still has some side effects, still weak, body not recovered yet. but at least can type faster d... mind is more functioning and can even quarell and fights with mouth..and hands.. hahha But in certain time where wind blows, still a bit aching and not comfortable.. Throat is very very very dry. Keeps drinking lots of water to prevent coughing due to dryness. Try not to talk.. and only in low soft voice... Was originally plan to complete my work but have been long time didn't update my blog... so my hand is a bit itchy.. 12:32 midnight now.. MY mom they all laugh at me.. sick people don't want to sleep but sitting there writing silly nonsence diary blog which only those boring people will do! Hhaha.. all I ignore lah.. tomorow only i will start working.
What a long nonsence I have been sneezing.. 废话一箩箩。。。自己看的日记嘛，当然啰说。你要嘛就看，不要嘛就别看好了。。。干别人什么事？ 嘻嘻。
OK. Goodnite! Sweet Dreams and enjoy my long holiday till next monday.. OOpss.. have to complete my work tomorrow night.. no more delay or else what happen again over the weekend... Oh God, Bless me with your love and strength.. Thanks!
Sweet Sneezes from SunSun*
PS: I discovered a lot of wrong grammars and spellings... Arghh.. Lazy to correct... Do you mind?
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