摸索。暗与亮。玩。火。

我在黑暗中行走。走着走着，不知摔倒了几回。停顿的时空里，不断地摸索着，企图找寻出路。迷蒙中捉到了什么。。。是的。是一根火材。。。一根火材！我好像找到了希望！试图点燃。咯嚓。。。亮了。

其实，我已习惯了一个人活在黑暗世界。是的。最近我跌得很痛，摔了一大绞。有一点醉了。我看到前面有深坑，还是不由自主地把自己一头栽进洞里。因为黑坑里我看见了童话世界。这一摔，摔的很痛，很痛。童话世界的门，并没有为我而开。我，进不去。颓废，失望。最终，我还是爬了起来。我开始喝着慢性毒药。企图麻醉自己也让毒药把自己保持力量。我开始找寻亮光。什么亮光都不放过。终于，我找到了那一根火材。一根被人废弃了的火材！一根受伤，被遗弃了的火材。我有意无意的把玩着，轻轻的磨擦着，火材，咯嚓的亮了。是的！我在玩火！我毫不费力的，轻易的点燃了火源！我并不知道，也许应该说我特意逃避，顽固的不顾后果。那一丁点的火源，正隐藏着无形的力量。星星之火可以燎原。我的一句话，一个决定，一个举动，足以让一根火材发挥无穷的力量。我开始慌了。我感觉到震撼！或许那一根火材，也从没想过它的力量，能燃烧着干枯的草原。火势继续蔓延。。。

我心里悲恸万分。彷徨。惊慌。活在酒醉的日子，脑海里闪烁着爱恋的影子。那个他，满满的装着雪冰冷的影子，令我在黑暗世界里越发觉得寒冷。火材的火是我唯一的慰籍。依偎着，我暂时有了短暂的依靠。可却也点燃了危机。火势继续蔓延。我喘息着。有一点舒软乏力。我确实慌了。我是怎么了？我是怎么了？我在想什么？我在做什么？我在玩火！我怕！我怕烧伤了自己，也怕烧伤了他。被遗弃了的火材，本已遍体鳞伤。我不知道我是不是错了。为了满足自己泄愤，我竟。。。

我实在不忍。我不知道这个实验室里，化学作用的结果是什么。。。一个刚结婚两个星期的男人，被老婆把自己夹在母亲大人中间当夹心饼的男人，就被老婆抛弃了整八个月！结婚前的暧昧，令我在他心灵脆弱时，轻易的以粉红知己的身份介入。我根本不需做作。就很自然的让他敞开了胸怀。我们都有意无意的企图让自己从对方中得到一丝安慰，一丝依靠。可我们心里都想着另一个人。也因此，我们都刻意保持着一份距离。我爱的人，从来没有我的影子。他爱的人，容不下他唯一的母亲。我们都活在行尸走肉，痛苦的日子。我，继续默默的支持着我的他。纵使他永不回头。我盼望他能望我一眼，对我回眸一笑，可是他已越走越远。。。我再也听不到，看不到他的踪影。他已离去。。。不留一点机会。远去。触摸不到背影。泪水一滴一滴的流淌。。。

我，不知该如何是好。。。我，迷失了方向。我是否该在悬崖勒马？我是否该停止玩火？我是否该浇熄火源？一个他，已令我深陷泥泞。若加一个他，又会怎样？黑暗里，我找不到扶手。那个他的远去，我只有默默的祝福他。每天为他祈祷。我愿成为他黑暗中的天使，只要保持联系，需要时一定默默扶助。我太爱他。不论他贫与富，其实我更贫，我更丑，我更没智慧。我更没资格爱上他。我的主啊，请你为我指点光明的道路。我，还会得到爱吗？我的世界里，会有春暖花开的时候吗？愿主救我。我相信主。我愿在新的一年开始前，找到属于我的他。。。

流泪迷失的羔羊。

I Wish...

...I Wish that you like me too...I Wish that you miss me too...I Do Wish that we will soon meet and be together...

Thank God...

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Thank God, He found a job!
Thanks for listening to my prayers
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。。。。。。。。。。。。。 无言。 。。。 。。。。。。。。。

我不知该继续支持你还是该选择忘了你 。。。

我在想。。。

如果我继续默默的支持你，有朝一日，你会否感受到我给你的温暖？
你会不会回头来望一望我 开始回顾以往我对你的一切？
或许 。。。 你根本不会。
或许你只有一直的逃避我 因为你根本从没想过， 也从不愿与我有更进一步的发展。
你只觉得厌烦。 只觉得我根本不是你想要的那一类型
很少会有男性喜欢较主动型的女孩。。。那会让他们受宠若惊，即使是二十一世纪
结果我们都将失去原本最单纯的友谊 。因为你一直的逃避

我对你来说是一面镜子 我做什么 说了什么 就算是病了
你宁可慰问网络里认识的网友， 也对我不闻不问！
我内心流泪，只好对自己说 什么都是自己自找麻烦 明知道结果 还要把头撞在墙上
这就叫自作多情。其实我的脸皮还算蛮厚的！这么羞了 还真丢脸！

可偏偏对你就有那份莫明其妙的感觉。
要说什么好条件。。。又没钱又没安全感。。。

不过，无论如何，我还是希望你早日找到一份安稳的工作， 希望你幸福，希望你快乐
愿一切美好的 都属于你。那是我每天祷告时都帮你祈求的。只因为我喜欢你。

每当我说要删除，其实，我一点都做不到，因为我不能没有你的讯息。。。
除非你把我删除了。。。不过那将会是在我心胸中狠狠地插入了几刀，如万箭穿心。

我想只有时间让我慢慢的淡忘你的影子吧。。。

同样的，虽然你有这个网址，我知道你不会看到这篇文章，因为你根本没兴趣阅读。
你也知道这个是我的私人日记。

夜澜人静。。。不能说的秘密曝光了！

十一月七日，接近八日凌晨：

我终于鼓起勇气相约了几十年的好友 - 妮大姐来帮我挖心掏肺。我是一个从不在朋友面前坦言真相，诉苦，谈自己的故事的人。因为我都不相信今天的朋友会是一辈子的朋友。今天的朋友可能在明天就会瞬间变成你的敌人！就算我告诉你我的一些心情故事，也只不过是虚幻难以捉摸的，有时甚至是轻描淡写的带过。例如在我的面子书。你或许知道我心情不好，可你并不会知道是为了什么。。。而且面子书里的朋友能归类得太多，陌生的，存好奇心的，不怀好意的，深交的，太多太多了。。。而经过一番的绞胃折磨，我终于把我不能说的秘密倾翻倒胃的呕了一大堆在妮大姐的身上！当然，对某些事或在某些时候，我确实与我想倚靠的人不经意的，甚至是直截了当，毫不隐瞒的，在网上写下了我心灵深处最真的我的写实。而那个人是唯一的，甚至是认识了我几十年的老友我都不会对他们说任何关于我的家事，感情故事。我也不会去管你到底喜不喜欢听和看，我也不愿意想会不会或期望得到安慰，也不去想你对我归类成哪一种朋友，我只是想要有一个人静静地听。当然，能被安慰是最欣慰的。最起码，我不能说的，或不愿分享他人的，可以写下来。我，只不过想要有一个心灵的依靠，一个避风港。一个了解我的人！而我也了解，其实我的故事，又有谁会有兴趣去听呢？。。。它们都是一些琐碎，不关他人痛痒的事。由谁会喜欢去听他人那无聊枯燥乏味的牢骚呢？在网上敢写，也因为没人真正认识你，所以放胆去做。

昨夜，我们俩谈了很多。终究是二十多年的老朋友！妮的确很了解我。我说与不说，从表情动作她都很了解我的想法。我告诉她其实我是明白的。从以前到现在。况且我们曾经同住一屋檐下达两年。有什么是不了解的呢。我的脾气，我的习性，我的喜好。。。我的懦弱。我的牛脾气。往往我都不曾那么放松的畅谈。只因我很关闭自己。我好不容易才鼓起了很大的勇气去解放自己内心的世界。就算到了那里我还是在想着我是不是该谈一谈我的故事呢？你对我说上个星期十一月一日的庆生会，你和小娜，小琳，阿森他们以好久没看到我那发自内心的笑容了。对，我的确很开心！是好久没这么开心过。你们察觉了我的不同。我骗不了你们。如你们所说，平时的我爱酷得很。没什么笑容。很多时候并不快乐。我该扩大我的社交圈子。让自己豁达一些。寂寞与无奈是我的敌人。

烦恼，很多时候都是自找的。因为我们看不开。我不是圣人。有些时候，就是跟着感觉走。明知道不可能的事情，却像着了魔，傻到做了一大堆的事情，傻到忘了自己，只想让我心目中的他过得好一些，过得快乐，过得幸福。而自己的心情也跟着他阴晴不变。他需要什么，想要什么，在忙也好，在生病也好，在什么时候都好，我都会把他放在心目中的第一位。纵使我知道他心目中只有另一个她，根本看不到我，更不用说容得下我。一路以来，我总是单方面的偷偷的，默默的付出。因为我知道幸福不会在我生活里出现。我的世界是黑暗的，没有色彩。不知有多少个相命家说我是不会找到一个属于你的避风港的人。无论我有多努力，我生命中不会有一个他来伴着你。我相信相命家所说，是因为我爱着的永远都不会爱我。是我选择错了。爱上一个不该爱的人。可是却身不由己总是感觉与他是那么的熟悉，那么的亲切！伤心时，很想向他倾诉。快乐时，很想与他分享。有好的东西时，很想告诉他，不如咱们一起去尝试。让大家一起融入双方的生活。好想听他诉说今天过得怎麽样，工作还好吗，就算是一些琐碎的事情，辟如说午餐跟同事去那里吃呀，晚餐妈妈下厨了吗还是外出打包。当妈妈煮了好吃的事物，很想也拿一份给你尝一尝等等。。。太多的事想要与你一起共度过。可惜，我是明白与知道。我，没有那个机会。因为你不属于我。永远都将会是我单方面的多情。就像人家说：喜欢 expresso 的人又怎么会对美式咖啡感到有兴趣？如果最美好的早已留在心中，那再多的选择也只会视而不见。每一次只不过是我单方面的遐想。我说我很会做白日梦。不断的祷告，只希望难过与害怕时有一个可以依靠的避风港。我告诉妮大姐说，我是不是很傻，年纪也不小了，竟然开始思春呢！哈哈。。一天没有你的讯息，日子变得乏味起来。我们的偶然相遇，使你突然闯进了我的生活。你的逃避，我们不再像往常一样无所不谈，嬉哈打闹。我万万也想不到原来我的地位是那么的低。我比较了你周遭朋友的对谈，是你对我的偏见还是要求太高了吗？同样的对白，你可以很大方的接受。可是由我口中说的，你会毫不留情的删掉。只因为他们是你多年的朋友，而我在你心目中是网络里的普通朋友。唯有我因为不知不觉的掉入了人生自设的陷阱，一霜情愿的认为我们已是无说不谈的朋友。你的逃避与隔膜，使我生活好像少了什么。那一段日子我是伤到心深处。看到你悲哀难过，你的真诚，心里感动极了，替你不值。那个她真的不懂得珍惜。人生就是那样。兜兜转转，到后来或许你选的将会是你出乎意料之外的。有什么事情是不可能的呢？人生没有到终点，你是不知道也不能预测事情的结果。不过，对我来说，我始终不认为我会有快乐的园地，属于我的彩虹。你可以说我很悲观，不过我更了解明白自己。我看不到自己的价值在哪里。从内到外，我并不耀眼。我不是一颗闪耀的星星，我失去了我的光芒，找不到它在哪里。我只有傻劲，只会一股劲的付出，明知得不到回报。这就是爱冲昏了头脑吧!

妮大姐说凡是不要想太多，让自己活得更有价值。有自信的女人永远是一颗耀眼的星星，不论她去到哪里，总会光芒环绕。我还是看不到我的价值。你能告诉我吗？我看到的是我是一棵小野草。我并没有丰厚的身家，也不是什么千金小姐，也不是什么可爱娇小楚楚可怜的小女人，也不是俏丽型的。我只不过是一个在地球上普通不过的人类。平凡得很。她说她很相信：You Do The Best, The GOD will do the rest! 会吗？我已做到最好了，上天会眷顾我吗？

或许我的小姐脾气太牛了。或许我说话太直接了。或许我不懂得说话的艺术。或许我不解温柔风情。或许我是个太不懂得含蓄的人。或许我太不懂得为人着想。我想因该是的。。。我有太多的缺点。或许我根本不因该写上我的日记。很多东西是不能勉强的。该给对方与自己多一些时间和空间去做选择。保持朋友关系，别让它变质。毕竟有缘做朋友，是你上一辈子修来的福。或许我们曾经是朋友，亲戚，情侣，夫妻，孩子，甚至是敌人的关系。只不过我们一点都记不清楚了。唯一留下的是那么一些些的熟悉感。不断的轮回。我感觉到与你亲近是因为很多时候我们都在不约而同的写下同样的感想，只不过你没留意到罢了。当然，我明白。只因你心里容不下我。我只怪自己多情。只盼我们起码保持朋友的关系。因为我不想愧疚，生气，憎恨。那是很辛苦的。多一个人陪我们聊天是愉快的。我希望我们也是。最起码保持那一份真。。。

写了这么多，或许我并不该让它曝光。这对我没有什么好处。我整整用了一天的时间去起了这份稿，我也不期待什么。我想了好一段时间，才有勇气告诉妮我的故事。我想你应该不会看到这篇文章日记吧。。。应该不会。因为我的地位是。。。零。你不可能这么闲空来跟随我无聊的日记篇。。。不会，不可能，不相信。。。我也不希望你会看到。。。

我成功了!

我成功了！我成功了！

我终于成功了一半！我在三个月内成功的减去十二公斤，还要减去八公斤的肥油才算到目标。 哈哈。我的毅力可是很坚强的哦。。。别小看我。只要我设定目标，我一定能！我可是一棵小野草，小野蛮蜗牛.

蔡健雅-越来越不懂

在我22岁时回想起当时多么想谈爱
妈妈说就让它来
然而在我32岁时
发现我没太多的心去等待
它失去某种色彩
得不到的就更加爱
太容易来的就不理睬
其实谁不想遇见真爱
爱得绝对爱得坦白
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 yo
我越来越不懂爱
才32岁的我虽然一个人过也过得够精彩
偶尔再想谈恋爱
然而爱总是乱了节拍
我只能够瞎猜也许能中了头彩
中了又觉得奇怪
得不到的就更加爱
太容易来的就不理睬
其实谁不想遇见真爱
爱得绝对爱得坦白
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 oh...
越来越不懂爱
得不到的无所谓
就算是自我安慰没必要伤悲
得不到的就更加爱
太容易来的就不理睬
其实谁不想遇见真爱
爱得绝对爱得坦白
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 oh..
越来越不懂爱
以为遇上了就会明白
但每次它只留下惊鸿一瞥的感慨 oh...
越来越不懂爱
什么都不懂

后记：
实在太深奥了。。。虽然我并不认为这首歌曲好听，但它的歌词别具意义。简白却真实。尤其我最喜欢这段歌词 --- “得不到的就更加爱，太容易来的就不理睬，其实谁不想遇见真爱，爱得绝对爱得坦白。。。”
唉，连我自己也觉得有一点闷，怎么我的部落格老是绕着小爱来兜圈圈呢。好吧，下次再找一些新鲜的话题来谈好了。可是，这是我的心底话啊。。。只不过我并没有像歌词里说的那么老呀。。哈哈

The SADdest Face -- My very own masterpiece

The SADdest Face.... My very own masterpiece...

时常上网的人其实内心很空虚寂寞，生活并无多姿多彩，有时超无聊！可是我们不知不觉中上瘾了，而成为了一份子。。。或许是逃避的籍口吧！

没有网络的日子，该如何填补生活上的空虚呢？？？

Sunsun_Chs.

FRESH NEW LOOK ! Something NICE !

I want something new, something exciting, something tremendous, something enlightening, something revitalizing, something positive, something cherishing, something fabulous, something good, some nice pushing, some nice advices, some nice supports, some nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice nice things !

DEADly SICK DAYS ...Dead fish

It started on last Saturday (Aug 29) After I caught myself in a rainy morning.... Well, It was just a normal rainny day, as usual.. Just went to buy breakfast for the family members without an Umbrella.. Hhahah.. Can't figure out how WEAK I AM...

This was the 1st morning where my nephew stayed at my house, after a long tiring rush on Friday. Well, I Skipped my Pre-Saturday tight schedule in this part. After a light breakfast and rushing here and there doing things, helping at home... LUNCH time again... Helping to buy LUCH packs home.. Again, light rainy drops on my head... Phew... NO Problem, Keep going.. Then my niece was so sick till we need to take her to the hospital to see her paediatric doctor at Lam Wah Ee hospital. Waiting and without eating any lunch yet. Sister have to stay at home and take care of BB. I had to go with my briother in law. Waiting and waiting, Till 3:00pm + then only we get to see the doctor. Even the doctor nurse assistance also caught herself in FLU!

Then, You still got a lot of things to do today on Saturday...Yeah.. Your Fun Team Committee Work. Charity Month in October! Your task is to visit and interview an orphanage home and get as many details so that the Fun Team committees can decide on the next week whether to proceed with the plan or not. It was supposed to be a nicely short trip. But what happen was the car air-con fan spoilt. Have to change it.. Well, I had no time to wait for my dad to change it. It needs about 1 hour to fix it, including test drive. So, i say, let me drove there without air-con. If without rain, the air is still fine, but as soon as i drove near the town area, it started to rain and traffic jam.. sucks! have to wind up the window, leaving it with only some small gaps to allow the oxygen and carbon monocide blowing into the car and enjoying breath in all of them, without extra filter... ALL filtered by my lungs! Sweating inside the car. After about half an hour, reach St Joseph Orphanage Home, right beside the Cititel Hotel. Well, the rain had finally stopped. Parked my car at the yard near the church and walked towards the orphanage home. The building is a 2 levels buildings. Nothing special, but you can see kids running around. There are 2 computer rooms, 2 classrooms, 1 play room/ TV Room, 1 library, canteen, and girls and boys hostels. It can be say is quite well established orphanage home. I was introduced to Sister Margaret. She is quite nice but i must emphasized was... She was suffering from heavy flu... sneezing...throughout the whole interview and home visit! Well, i quickly get all the necessary details which I had prepared earlier and "run away"... What hitted me again was it started to rain again.. Tiny drops fell on my head.... and I was again packed myself in an Old Wira with no air-con and jamming back home.

Luckily when i reach home, the rain stop. It was time for my dad to show off while I was preparing myself to go for the 14th Bayan Baru Toastmaster Dinner and Humurous contest at Berjaya Hotel. Of course, I was not the participant, But in fact, I was being invited by the MC as a guest to enjoy their performance, while treating with course dinner and my friend;s Latin Dance Performance on the stage. Meeting those high level people, chattings...Started Feeling Cold even with long sleeves and long pant! Nothing much.. Go back home jam after that with a tiring body... Almost 12 midnight by the time reached home. Wanted to sleep, My Niece still hyperactive... the mom and the rest are busy with their own stuff and baby..Don't care already.. Go to sleep ..

The clock stroke at 1:30am...Time to BED !!! Finally we managed to pad my niece to sleep in my room as she was heavy flu with fever. We didn't want her to sleep in the same room as the baby. As usual, I put my mobile beside of my bed, in the dark, I grabbed something....Yeaks.. Ouuchhhh... What was biting my finger??????? I just had nothing to come out from my mouth but to cry in pain... My brother in law rushed into my room and switched on the light. OMG! A BEE ! I thought it was a beetle, as normally it would be beetle on the floor. I had just grab a BEE using my finger! Immediately i can see Redishness on my 3rd right hand finger. Well, Again.. Don't know how many times I had been going to the hospital this week! and now is going at midnight 1:30am! People are sleeping and visiting sweet dreams while I was visiting a stupid doctor! The temporary doctor once found out i was in flu and i have started light fever, sore throat, He is complaining why i didn't want to come visit the other morning cause they have the AH1N1 test. SUCKS. I came here main purpose was Stung by BEE and need immediate treatment, not FLU! and my finger was swelling, reddish, extremely pain! i complained and of course, get my hand treated but he didn't even look at my finger nor throat!. What a doctor which is in standby by midnight. Those temporary doctor.. I was only given a Clarinase for my FLU, and oil liquid for my finger and Strong Pain KIller - Celebrex 200mg!. Crazy ! Couldn't do much about it, went back home, rain again.. heavy rain.. Sleep in pain and the flu germs happily sleep with me too..

August 30 (Sunday)
In the next morning, fever without realizing.. just felt pain on finger and body aching... COLD... nose block, sorethroat... It was getting severe and severe.. Once got wind blowing or cold, my body pain and I had no energy... Feeling extremely weak & weak & weak.. Was originally plan to do my office reports and decks due to Monday was our National Day (Aug 31), but then I was totally out of control.... I keep feeding myself with panadols, i give to my own.. the doc didn't give me...then Aerius (tablet for sensitve throat/nose problem), Zyrtec, clarinase, vitamin C, Liverin, and all sorts of supplements.. Well, I manage to stand till the late evening. Of course, now i need to wear mask at home...to prevent the rest from being impacted.. Then I couldn't stand it anymore. Collapsed.. I rushed to the hospital again, meeting the other long term doctor for help. Getting weaker.. Laying myself at the waiting chair... Forgotten to mention.. I actually drove myself to see doctor, though i was so sick and feel dizzy... all of the family members were too busy till i had to say i could drive and i drove myself there, with half awake! Finally, this doc gave me a strong imported antibiotic - Zithromax, Diflamm lozenges, panadol, motilium. Spent Rm80+ this time. prescription for 3 days only and with warning if still no improvement, I had to come over and do blood test for further diagnosis!

Drove back and take those pills, feeling more dizzy and body ache and cold. Sleep. This time, no more bees. Turning right and left.. didn't know how many turnings I had that night...Sigh...

Aug 31 (MOnday)
My mom had pre set that today morning we had to pray for our ancestors at home. We chinese hokkien has a culture where in the chinese ghost month of July, we need to invite the passed away relatives/ancestors to come home and have some food, and have them bring back some Gold/money and listen to the prayers. So, again, I had to do my usually assigned tasks. Helping out to set up everything and make sure everything is fine while my mom went to the market and after that cook some dishes. Luckily I still can help out... But actually counting back what accidents I had been making in the morning... They are: I didn;t have energy to take 2 big door locks together and I fell one of them on my dad's fragile floor. Good for me, i didn't break the bricks on the floor. I spilt the soup when walking towards the table. NO energy again. . . I spilt the grapes on the floor as well, I spilt this and that... and I had to clean up quietly before my mom awared of my sickness so badly.. Couldn't let her know as she had been so busy and tiring as well... couldn't let her worried about me... Must be strong... At least, finished all the tasks for the prayings and it will be good rest for me after that!

After lunch...Cannot tahan d... and i didnt know actually my fever is still there. I didnt check.. More pain... but sweating a lot also.. seems like my body is fighting against the germs... the medicine is working their best.. my cells are trying their best.. but my mind is emptied minded.. like people in comma but eyes are wide opened. can't really sleep. just keep awake. decided to go to panel clinic to take MC for Tuesday. My 1st MC for this year.. i guess. Unfortunately, all panel closed due to public holiday. WTF! I can't take MC from hospital without panel clinic referral letter... and those panel clinic medicines are sucks. Couldn't really cure in speedy time. So I become my own doctor again.. keep taking those medicines and supplements. And my office works.. Who cares now.. Don't care already.. haven't started any thing yet.. Tried to online at night to retrieve the raw data file from company shared drive, When done, was already half asleep. Don't care, Couldn't awake.. Take the medicine and Go to Bed & Sleep! Had decided if worst case still come, will emergency admitted to shopital and MC... Another thing forgotten to mention, I suspected there's a bee hive somewhere... another bees was discovered flying and was dead on the floor...

Sept 1 (Tuesday)
I was blessed. Feelign better without fever now. But I could feel the dizziness on my head and hands and legs are still weak.. Even lift up my hand also couldn't longer. Tiring. Today will be my full day to WORK HARD till the THINGS ARE DONE before i collapsed. My boss said.. OMG, tomorrow meeting I might died if no deck to present in the meeting. Well, I was the business analyst for SA region and has no backup. What to do... Dragging Dragging Dragging.. Half emptied minded, half awake, Blank, then rest then work again. wearing the mask in the office for the whole day! All of them dare not talk to me as I told them i had fever, flu, sorethroat, body ache. Hhahah.. at least, no one dare to borther me with things.. hahhah...except those in MSN.. kkakakkakak... BY the time i finished and send everything, it was already office hour 5pm.
Yeah.. it's time to go home and have a good rest to revitalize myself with mom's cooking.. I only had one small piece of swiss roll as my lunch and dinner only have one vege dish with no rice. Breakfast? Milo only. Good for me to keep fit.. Sick is good aslo.. hahha

Sept 2 (Wednesday)
Not so dizzy now. Finished all my antibiotics and medicine. but still has some side effects, still weak, body not recovered yet. but at least can type faster d... mind is more functioning and can even quarell and fights with mouth..and hands.. hahha But in certain time where wind blows, still a bit aching and not comfortable.. Throat is very very very dry. Keeps drinking lots of water to prevent coughing due to dryness. Try not to talk.. and only in low soft voice... Was originally plan to complete my work but have been long time didn't update my blog... so my hand is a bit itchy.. 12:32 midnight now.. MY mom they all laugh at me.. sick people don't want to sleep but sitting there writing silly nonsence diary blog which only those boring people will do! Hhaha.. all I ignore lah.. tomorow only i will start working.

What a long nonsence I have been sneezing.. 废话一箩箩。。。自己看的日记嘛，当然啰说。你要嘛就看，不要嘛就别看好了。。。干别人什么事？ 嘻嘻。

OK. Goodnite! Sweet Dreams and enjoy my long holiday till next monday.. OOpss.. have to complete my work tomorrow night.. no more delay or else what happen again over the weekend... Oh God, Bless me with your love and strength.. Thanks!

Sweet Sneezes from SunSun*

PS: I discovered a lot of wrong grammars and spellings... Arghh.. Lazy to correct... Do you mind?